"Let go of ur grudges .

Let the bitterness die tonight .

Make a decision today that it's time to move on .

And begin again .

New , this time .

Never forget that what has passed you by was never meant to befall you .

And what has befallen you , was never meant to pass you by .

Know that sometimes Allah withholds from you , 

in order to give you something better .

Keep your heart focused on Him , 

and He will take care of the rest .

And remember : you'll stumble ,

but that's part of the path .

Keep going .

Keep rising ,

and refuse to give up ."

Yasmin Mogahed

Move On

cliche gilosss tajuk nye pun :3
but heyy who cares ? as long as it gives 'impact' to my own heart , i may use it as i please .

alhamdulillah the last one to board dh selamat berlepas to Aussie . i wish u have a safe flight dear Nurul :)
happy for friends , of course i do . sad for my own self , yes i did . but heyy it was past tense , i DID ! i no longer do .
penat lah nk sedih2 ni , lagi penat dari buat squats (ni gara2 future housemates yg semua excited nk get fit duk sibuk plan nk exercise dgn squats bagai ni xD ) , lagi penat dari lari kne kejar anjing , lagi penat dari buat beep test mse kat mktb dulu , lagi penat dari buat star jump 100 kali , pendek kata memg penat amat lah . mentally tired is worse than physically tired tho .

so , since aq dh list pnjg2 tahap kepenatan sedih tu , buat apa nk sedih lagi ? there's a saying goes "if u don't STEP FORWARD , u're always in the same place" . meratap kesedihan x dpt fly sama2 dgn diorang tu takuk lama aq . n i've decided to step forward , to see a better future , to be more positive .
aq tau org cakap nk move on x semudah menyebutnya . but it's NOT IMPOSSIBLE !! as long as we decide to keep ourselves positive , having positive vibes around us , supportive friends n family , in shaa Allah we'll be able to step forward . and of course to have faith in Him is the most important thing to do for me n all of us to move on !

sungguh , untuk redha itu tak semudah yg dijangka . perlu courage . faith . kalau tidak , masakan semudah itu utk menenangkan kembali hati yg gundah gelana ? untuk memujuk hati bukanlah perkara yg senang , apetah lagi hati sendiri . "the hardest part to deal is to deal with yourself" nah , can u see how hard it is to get ur own heart stable after such strong wind n storm passed by ? in this situation , much encouraging words n support from family n friends are needed . Alhamdulillah , aq bersyukur atas kurniaan sahabat yg sgt supportive n always be there for me :') may Allah bless all of u . my prayer will always be with u guys . korang lah antara reasons terbesar aq utk move on .

failure is not an obstacle . mungkin aq tersentap setelah dijentik hati ku olehNya dgn ujian sebegini suatu ketika dulu kerana aq telah lama berada di atas . maybe He wants to test my faith , n keeps me closer to Him . byk hikmahnya ujian ini , n aq seharusnya bersykur dgn perhatian yg diberikan olehNya utk meletakkan aq dlm golongan hamba-hambaNya yg mampu menghadapi dan menanggung ujian ini . indeed , He is giving me what i need , not what i want . because He knows me better :)

i'm praying that Allah will remind me that His plan for me is better than my dream . keeping that in mind will help me to stay calm n rest the unstable emotion in my heart . He wants me to be in different path with them , which is better for me for sure and we not know what is coming next . for now maybe i need to keep on moving n strive for the better future . hopefully in the end we will all succeed no matter where on earth are we now .
to stay positive is a choice i guess , just don't let the negative people n negative thoughts get into ur life . but still , no one can remain positive all the time , there must be ups n downs in life . but wait , kawan kan ada , or lagi tepat , sahabat :) hopefully i'll always have these sahabat with me whenever i feel down to help me stay positive .

hopefully we'll stay positive most of the time (because it seems impossible to say "all the time" harhar) . even if we're not , remember it's life ! u'll never be above all the time n u'll not be below forever . just bear in mind that it can't rain forever , it might be stormy now but things will get better . rainbow will come out soon , or later . keep saying to urself when u're not in a good mood "this too shall pass" :)

sedih

i wanna meet my girls so badly . nurul , milla , najah , akmal , iffah , ika , f.a . before u fly off i wanna hug n kiss uolls . i wanna give u girls some presents(as tanda ingatan) . i wanna tell u straight away that i'm gonna miss u . i wanna wish u good luck . i wanna say take care . i wanna remind u to stay firm in faith .
but i can only type all these things , not gonna say them by my mouth , face to face with u girls . how sad i am . 
 why am i living so far awayyyyyy ? why is it so hard for me to get permission to go anywhere ? why ????

just want u to know how badly i wanna meet up with u girls :'(

emmmm.....

sorry i'm not a good speaker . i can only be a good listener . because i don't know how to talk . the sentences stuck in my mind . i can't utter the words . most of the time , what i said were not the same as what were floating in my mind :(

ujian undang-undang

so al-kisahnya harini aq baru ambik ujian undang2 *hashtag noob* . seperti biasa , study last minute memg sebati dgn aq . smlm baru nk jenguk2 soalan nye pun . tu pon x hbis baca . then pergi lah aq menjawab ujian tersebut .
11 minit dah siap . dapat 48/50 . salah 2 soalan , bahagian A , part papan tanda jalanraya -,- (ok aq tau tu part paling senang tahap dewa tapi part tu yg aq salah)

then bermulalah kisah sebenar dlm hidup . kena marah sbb salah dua . Ma cakap kalau x dpt 50 tu kira gagal lah tu . GAGAL okay , gagal . even atas kertas tu terpampang 'lulus' , tapi di mata parents aq dikira gagal *pang!*
"tu lah study last minit sgt . tau sgt perangai kamu ni . Ma dh cakap awl2 dh , x pernah nk serius kalau ada ujian . mcm mana nak skor test2 lain masa degree nnti ? lepas ni jgn buat perangai mcm ni lagi" - Ma
"tengok orang pon dh tau dh dpt skor berapa . dh dpt agak before akak sit for the test . yg ni jenis yg cepat pick up , tapi malas . fariha (adik) tu lmbt pick up sikit , tapi rajin . abang kamu tu tengah2 antara kamu dua org" - Ayah

gara-gara salah 2 dlm ujian undang2 tu , dapatlah lecture bermanfaat sepanjang 20 minit perjalanan pulang ke rumah . yg dicatat di sini hanyalah sebahagian daripadanya sahaja . 

that's my parents . they know me well . nak cakapnye , kalau aq fail apa2 test , diorang cakap bkn sbb aq x pandai , tapi sbb aq MALAS . *mata berpasir*
hmm . so bila nak rajin ni ? bila nak berubah ah ? *tampar pipi sendiri* (lagi elok kalau ada org tlg bagi tamparan kesedaran)