HOPE

i can't stop hoping 

hope to fly

i'm sick of crashing into pieces with the crashed hope

but this one hope

it's different

i can't stop hoping

i've been dreaming to fly since i was 10

it's almost 9 years

how can i let my dream turns to dust ?

never

i can't stop hoping

because my parents don't 

they keep saying that i'll fly

then how can i say i won't ?

i can't stop hoping

i've been visualised myself living in Aussie for a whole year in Ausmat

tell me how to get myself live calmly in Malaysia ?

without having any thought about Aussie 

i can't stop hoping

but i'm sick of that

will you help me ?

to achieve my hope and dream ?

ease me , Ya Allah :'(

i know that You won't test me with something that i can't bear . 

i'm praying that You'll give me strength to face this and for me to stand up again .. i really need courage n strength to do so ..

i don't wanna disappoint my parents anymore :'(

ya Allah , please ease my journey ...

choice

i'm not a type of person who can easily makes a decision . i'm difficult . and now i have to make decision regarding my future . it makes me feel miserable . i need guidance :'(

among the 5 choices of uni , i need to narrow them into 2 . lots of things need to be considered when that place will be ur second home , where u'll spend another 4-5 years (yeah not sure yet but i hope my result allows me to fly there)  . i'm thinking of my ATAR , the environment there , ranking of the universities , cost of living , accommodation , weather , friends that i know , distance from malaysia (which the fare of the flight is lower so that i can go home often :p) , and many more . 

on top of all , my ATAR would be my primary consideration . therefore melbourne n UNSW obviously out of my list -,- so now i have 3 choices , UQ , UWA and Adelaide . if i'm considering the ranking , i'd choose UQ and UWA .

cost of living : i'd choose Adelaide . n i'll get confuse for my second preference -,-

weather : i won't choose UQ . thus my choices will be UWA n Adelaide .

friends : UWA won't be in my list

distance from malaysia : the one n only , UWA . n i don't know whether to choose UQ or Adelaide as my second choice .

nah , so now which uni should i choose ??? T.T